I'm getting tired of this.

Haiz..

I realize how much i hated her. now its moving from her to another HER. i NEVER hated someone so MUCH before. NEVER. even to people in my school that take me like shit. i only hate them for like 1 or 2 or 4 months MAX. then the hateness and all will be gone. i use to hate woannie and she use to hate me too. and now we both are ok. friends to put it in a better word. i NEVER hated SOMEONE before so much till i waste my salt water on them [ my tears ] i dont think i can ever forgive or even talk to them without thinking of ways to kill them. you seriously dont know HALF the story. so many things has been running in my mind. waking up in the middle of the night for no reason. haiz seriously, i hate the way i feel rite now. my heart feels so dam uncomfortable and unesy. i dont know how many times i have been complaing to melody and i feel so bad. >< sorry dear! and here i am now typing and tearing up. wtf?? i hate it, cant stand it, cant hear it. sometimes i wish i was dead. then i can feel no pain no more. life sucks.


i dont think i can take much of this anymore.



will update when i dont feel so dam crappy.











i seriously think ......................... playing me

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Its part of the past now. but the memories will be in my heart forever.

HELLO BEAUTIFUL PEOPLE!!!! :D [be happy i called you beautiful and not ugly :P ]

well, Chinese New Year has come to an end. :( sob sob. NOOOOOooooooo! no more gambling, no more drinking, no more making MONEY!!! $$ xD ok la, i sound like a lifeless boob. [ BOOB another word for STUPID not BOOBS :P ] hahaha. i'm so dam lazy to update. i'll just post tons of er... pictures.

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hah, i cant remember. i think i was emo?


dont look like me eh?

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haha, no i wasn't emo. i was just playing around.


melo. she called it the red sexy apple. ;D reminds me alot about twilight. hehe EDWARD!


melo and me <3


kai loon's hair. dam cute rite?? i do one.


my dears. :D amanda ; the retard ; melo :)


dick; no one is being sick. xD its suppose to be dick YANG but han yean was lazy. xD dam sad rite? now i call him dick dick and he told me that his old school friends calls him dicky xD wtf?


Joe Yee. my mummy gave me the sexy name. xD


amanda. yea i know. she eat DAM ALOT.


to frame the HATED memories of the past.


lol. cute face. :P




yiish, when i look at this pictures. it kinda looks like her? oh fuck.


the picture is blur because you make me shake like i never shaked before.



as trying to act sassy xDDDD


stick tongue at you! :P [ trying to act cute. but as you see in the picture i FAILED. ]


my brother possing after eating to much.

and this is where all the gambling started. hehe!


my beautiful DOUBLE As. :D


haha. my cousins made up the name my chubby stubby uncle. xD



and i started off with 2bucks and made 45bucks on the first day. :DDD



coke la!


wine BOTTLE. hehehe


yee sang. blek~


and everyone called me the future LAI family drinker/drunker. xD wtf??!!


THIS is what i wore. -.- go say i look naked pulak.

NOW ITS ALL RANDOM PICS XD



paris hilton purfume. :D my mummy buy for me. weeee~ smells dam nice.


NOTE: to AlL guys you should see this. xD





i seriously look like her dont i?? blek~ *shows the sicky face.


well, thats all for now. told you there's tons of pictures. xD haha. there is more but i lazy jor. hehe. so, count your blessing!

P.S: JASMINE READS my blog~! no way no way. HAHA!

PSS: i miss 3omega. :/ i miss ahhan at the back of me and ahlil at the side. :(

xox
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enough.

I'M TIRED!!!

































I'M DONE BEING THE THIRD WHEEL!!!!


































wll update after cny.
















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Like a shape knife cutting my vains

I did a lot, I know you say
I've got to get away.
"The world is not yours for the taking"
Is all you ever say.
I know I'm not the best for you,
But promise that you'll stay.
'Cause if I watch you go,
You'll see me wasting, you'll see me wasted away

'Cause today, you walked out of my life
'Cause today, your words felt like a knife
I'm not living this life.

Goodbyes are meant for lonely people standing in the rain
And no matter where I go it's always pouring all the same.
These streets are filled with memories
Both perfect and in pain
And all I wanna do is love you
But I'm the only one to blame.

'Cause today, you walked out of my life
'Cause today, your words felt like a knife
I'm not living this life.

But what do I know, if you're leaving
All you did was stop the bleeding.
But these scars will stay forever,
These scars will stay forever
And these words have no meaning
If we cannot find the feeling
That we held on to together
Try your hardest to remember

Stay with me,
Or watch me bleed,
I need you just to breathe.

'Cause today, you walked out of my life
(Stay with me, or watch me bleed)
'Cause today, your words felt like a knife
(I need you just to breathe.)
I'm not living this life.

HOW I BLOODY WISH I HAVE A FUCKING KNIFEEEEEEE!!! SOMEONE PRESENT ME THE SHARPEST KNIFE YOU GOT!!! YOU WILL BE SAVING MY LIFE!! I'M SO SO SO SO SO SERIOUS!!! I WANNA CHOP SOMETHING UP!! I KEEP ON LISTENING TO 'LIKE A KNIFE' AND I'M SERIOUSLY GOING TO CUT MYSELF!! i dont give a fuck who is going to kill me. i dont CARE! read it and GET IT... I F.U.C.K.I.N.G D.O.N.T G.I.V.E A F.U.C.K! if you wanna kill me feel free too. i HATE LIFE AND LOVE AND I HATE HERRRRR!!!! fuck it fuck it fuck it!!! [BITCH, GO SUCK SOME GUY'S DICK TIL YOUR DAM FACE TURNS PURPLE!!! ]



FUCK LOVE.

What a lie.

yooooo..!


i got new header! do you like it?? tag it tag it! :D anyway, today is the last day of school for chinese new year. nothing much happen between the first 3 periods. It was just plane boring. eng maths and sejarah. after that we had ekonomi but we did perdagangan. thats what you get when your class teacher is teaching you 2 same subjects. xD then we went to the audi for some shit about our hair and our clothes and period pads? mel and ing didnt come so i was a loner walking around finding people xD since suzanne was in the science lab. at the end i found amanda we walked and non-stop all they way down. [ went break with her tooo :D ] went in and sat with siti since we had to sit class by class. its was boring. A WASTE OF TIME. talking about our hair and how we have to pin the side up and bla bla bla.. i was stonning all the way. didnt pay attention xD i know i'm notty. so what? it was just a stupid talk that wasted our time. anyway. there was more talking till 12.35 after that we went back to class [ we as in girls] so, siti,han yean,kar yee,qiao yi, li ding and me didnt go to the art room. we ponteng! :P hope our names are not in the control book. >< we sat in class talking about the class deco and stuff. talked till the bell ring. walked down with amanda and krystal to the canteen. eat abit talked alot. bus moved. so i say bye. came back take bath and came online since someone is very upset about something. ): cheer up!! so i didnt get my 2hour sleep since i had to talk to him. and now? i'm falling asleep right here right now. my god! pig much? have to go swimming or wtv after CNY. all the food and fats. OMG O.O !! okok, i'll stop crapping. pics :D











P.S: things happened. cut short. ><

hehehe.. bye!!


xoxo
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TONG TONG BLEK~

IT'S THE LAST DAY OF SCHOOOOOL!!! WHEEEEE~


Its a couple more days to CNY! [ chinese new year] cant wait cant wait!!! red wine :P gambling :D and of cause ANGPAU 8D !!!!! WHEEEEE!!! i cant wait! this year my cousins and me gets extra angpau cos my other older cousin got married last year. but i hope they wont be to CIPALIAK again. -.- went they got married they gave us 2bucks. 2 FREAKING BUCKS! wtf can you do with 2bucks?! omg, you wanna buy credit also cannot. at less 5 or 10 la! so cheap-skate! wtf? xD! i dont have new clothes this year. wtf rite? my mom la. next day next day next day. pro like fuuuuuck! sob.! maybe going out on friday or wtv then i'll try to do some last min shopping. wahahaha! no way on CNY no new clothes i'll be in old clothes? yer! xD haha. kidding kidding. its like 12.57 rite now. and i'm still not going to bed. why? no idea. :P ok la... bye! xD





xoxo
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All new hating.

YOU FUCKING CIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIBAI!!!!
I FREAKING HOPE YOU ROT IN HELL. GET IT??!! R.O.T I.N H.E.L.L!!! YOU FUCKING UGLY BIATCH! HOPELESS.!





worthless MUCH?!